"Let me begin by telling you my story, if only so you’ll
know what you’re getting yourself into.
I was five years when I told the people around me that I wanted to be
a writer. Which naturally assured that there were soon a lot fewer
people around me. They all went to hang around with normal kids. Me,
I was the kind of kid who preferred reading the newspaper to playing
tetherball. The kind who begged Santa Claus to bring him a typewriter
when everybody else was dying for GI Joe with the King Fu grip. I
remember in second grade how the teacher used to call me up to the
front of the class to read stories I had written. She would praise me
to high heaven -- such initiative, such creativity -- and then utter
those fatal words: "Why can't the rest of you be more like
Leonard."
You cannot imagine how popular this made me with the other guys. I
became expert at slipping out of school unseen and running home just
so I could avoid receiving their...congratulations.
Sometimes, of course, they caught me. Held me against a wall while
expressing a sincere desire to forcibly re-arrange my facial
features. Or they would suggest I perform certain anatomical
impossibilities with the story I had just read in class. Or else,
they might offer certain unsolicited opinions relative to my mother's
choice in combat footwear.
Of course, I was not without a ready response on these occasions.
"Some day," I would tell them, "you're going to be digging ditches
for a company I own."
For some reason, I was under the impression that writing was a good
way to get rich.
I read all the time, of course. Read Erma Bombeck's column in The Los
Angeles Herald-Examiner. Read novels by Beverly Cleary. Read Stan
Lee, the Marvel Comics writer, from whom I learned words like
phantasmagorical, tintinnabulating, larruping and other terms I’ve
never found a way to sneak into real life until just this second.
When I wasn't absorbed in these masterworks of modern literature, I
was writing, usually stories starring superheroes of my own devising.
Chief among them, of course, was a fellow named Super-Leonard who had
super strength, the ability to fly, and was never once forced to
stand against a wall while some bigger guy insulted his mother's
taste in combat footwear.
When I was 12, I discovered Writer's Market which, as most of you
probably know, lists magazines that are looking for freelance
writers. It seemed so gloriously easy to me -- you sent these people
stories and they sent you money. I liked this, so I chose one of the
magazines that offered the most money and wrote on a subject I knew
very well. Which was ants. Carpenter ants, fire ants, soldier ants. I
loved ants, so I put everything I knew on the subject into four very
well-written pages and sent them off to this high paying
magazine.
Then I camped out by the mailbox and waited for a reply. It came a
few weeks later. I ripped the envelope open eagerly, unfolded the
letter and...well, this is probably going to leave you shocked and
surprised, but it turns out that Playboy magazine has absolutely no
interest in articles about ants.
I was undeterred, though. Kept trying. Two years later, when I was
14, I had a poem published in The Sentinel, the black newspaper in
Los Angeles. Four years after that when I was 18, I got the first of
many bylines in SOUL, a black entertainment tabloid. Spent the next
18 years calling myself a music critic for that and various other
publications. For the last four of those years, I was employed by The
Miami Herald, where I covered everybody from Snoop Doggy Dogg to
Barry Manilow. You ever try going from Snoop Doggy Dogg to Barry
Manilow? From “smokin’ endo sipping on gin and juice” to “I write the
songs that make the whole world sing?” You can get whiplash like
that.
Pop music writing is a young man’s game. It requires a flexibility
that, as I became older, I realized I no longer had. Suddenly, I
didn’t get the same old thrill from clambering up on my seat to chant
“When we party, we party hearty. When we boogie, we boogie woogie.”
Suddenly, the stoned out guy puking near the elevator was young
enough to be my son. Suddenly, I started feeling my age – which at
the time, was 36. Although in pop music years, that’s…well, it’s
dead.
So I asked my bosses for a new assignment, which is how I’ve wound up
doing a column on family and social issues since 1994. And here I am.
Or at least, that’s my story and I’m sticking to it.
When the good people at Knight Ridder asked me to address this august
gathering, they told me I should try to be – and this is a quote –
provocative and inspirational. Since they were paying for the plane
ticket, I solemnly promised I’d do my best. But then, I lie a
lot.
Truth is, I don’t know what it would take to provoke or inspire you.
Heck, as journalists, we fancy ourselves immune to both. So instead,
I figured I’d just talk to you about this job we do everyday. I
figured I’d talk to you about telling stories.
There are days – more of them than we’d like, unfortunately – when
this job is like getting root canal with a chain saw, except not
quite as much fun. Days when the words won’t start and the meetings
don’t stop. Days of wrestling headlines, deadlines and budgets
smaller than Pat Buchanan’s heart.
But you know something? On the worst day you ever did, this is still
the best job you could ever want. Because it allows us the
opportunity – the high privilege – of giving voice to those who live
otherwise in silence. Of making a place for the telling of stories
that would not otherwise be told.
If we don’t do it, if we don’t engage our cameras and computers, our
minds and hearts in this work, who will? Where will these stories
go?
These are good questions to keep in mind when terms like “diversity”
threaten to become mere catch phrases, abstract concepts to which we
are supposed to aspire if we wish to consider ourselves enlightened.
The truth is that achieving diversity is often a difficulty some
folks in our business could do without, requires tough calls and
extra effort they’d rather not make.
Hey, I can understand that. Diversity forces us to face some
demanding questions. How do you create this new environment? How do
you manage it so that you welcome the widest variety? How do you
avoid marginalizing people? Can we envision an editor wearing his
hair in corn rows? A publisher whose religious obligations require
him to pray several times a day facing the East? How much should the
work place change to accommodate such people? And how much should
they change to accommodate the work place? Can we all just get
along?
If you’re looking for easy answers, don’t look at me. And yet, one
thing I know: The need to open our newsrooms, pages and airwaves to
those with different colors of skin, ways of belief or orientations
of sex ought to be – has to be – more than vague obligation or
perfunctory burden. It has to be our highest work, one of the primary
engines that drives us.
I wasn’t at the last Unity, but I’m told that the opening ceremony
was a stirring sight. I’m told that drummers from the four families
of humanity represented here entered the room from different
directions and raised rhythm together. Man, I wish I’d seen that. I
find the symbolism of that moment…inspiring.
Some years ago, I interviewed a drummer born in Jamaica who spent
years touring West Africa and learning his craft. His name was Kofi
Leo and he played one rainy night in Liberty City in Miami. The
dancers were dancing, their faces shining with honest sweat, and his
hands were alive, now blurring against the taut skin of the
instrument, then caressing it softly like a lover, coaxing rhythm
from his family of drums – the resonant junjun, the deep and mighty
djembe, the sharp and demanding congo.
It’s hard to explain what I felt as I listened to him that night. It
was like standing naked before the very first dawn. Like wading in
the water of a river that human eyes had seen. Like catching whispers
form a time when Earth was new and Africa was still home to us
all.
Suddenly I understood, better than I ever had before, why it was that
when West Africans came to these shores as slaves, one of the first
things owners did was take away the drum. The drum was the way we
spoke to one another. The way we thwarted and exhorted and wept and
prayed and praised and raised ourselves from the pit of our own
despair. The drum was the way we told the stories that reminded us of
who we were.
Not that black people are the only ones with a legacy of drums. All
the children of the African continent, when they left, took drums
with them. Kofi Leo told me quote, “The Irish people have their
drums, the Scottish people have their drums, the Indians of America,
the aborigines of Australia, the rastas in Jamaica, the Hindustani
people from India…”
We all have our stories. We all have our drum.
In the United States of America in 1999, the sound of those drums is
brought to us via Channel 10 Action News or the Podunk Express Times.
And you and I, we are privileged to be the gatekeepers, the women and
men who determine whose drums are heard and how. So whose stories
shall we tell?
For most of the years of media’s existence, the answer has always
been the same. We would tell the stories of white males from the
middle class. Other stories would be as invisible as if they didn’t
even exist, or would matter only to the degree that they impacted
upon the lives of those white men. But the change Sam Cooke once
prophesied has, in some small measure at least, come, as evidenced by
our presence here today. We stand here representing the racial
rainbow and find ourselves expected, obligated, encouraged, to tell
stories that have, historically, never been told before.
We are asked to bring the drums.
But there’s a problem, isn’t there? You cannot bring the drums to
ears that refuse to hear them. Too often, as a profession, our ears
are unwilling. I’m not even going to get into statistics, not going
to deal with the fact that so-called minority journalists are still
underrepresented in our newsrooms. I’m not going to talk about the
crying need to bring in more journalists of color. I just want to
deal with our inability to figure out what to do with the ones we
already have.
You want to know something? The truth is, where diversity is
concerned, I rather like the company I work for. Please understand
that nobody asked me to say this, nobody is paying me to say this.
More to the point, nobody could pay me enough to say it if I didn’t
believe it. But I like KR because I tend to believe they just might
be serious about the slogan on this button they’re passing out:
Diversity, no excuses. If that slogan didn’t accurately reflect the
corporate culture, there’s no way they would have put up with me for
the last eight years. There’s no way I would look up the corporate
ladder and see so many faces that looked like mine.
And yet even here, you sometimes get this sense that sometimes, they
don’t quite know what to do with you. I mean, Lord knows I enjoy
writing about black things. But I also enjoy writing about things,
period. There’ve been too many occasions where I had to meet with my
editors to remind them of this: “Hey, you know, there’s this movie
coming out about the ship that hit the iceberg in 1912. I know
there’s nothing ‘black’ about it, but the story has always fascinated
me. When you’re assigning pieces, would you keep me in mind,
please?”
I once had several of my editors tell me that I was not black enough.
Six months later, these same folks came to me and complained that I
had now become too black. Not that they were the only ones.
Periodically, I’ve had readers also take it upon themselves to advise
me on my need to become blacker or less black. I’ve come to feel like
that TV set in the corner of the den, the old one where you can never
quite get the color fixed so that everybody is pleased. I seem to be
at the center of this new parlor game: Let’s Adjust The Negro!
I finally had to tell them all to get off my back. I will be just as
black as I feel like being on a given morning.
As a minority journalist in a white-owned company, you live for a
long time with this sense of having to “represent” something, of
carrying the burden of other people’s expectations. Then, there’s the
sense of being always on probation, always having to prove yourself.
Like everyday is the first day. Like you’re never more than one slip
from the unemployment line. It gets tiring.
Before our business can truly achieve diversity, it has to learn to
value diversity. Has to learn to manage, embrace and exploit the
advantages that come with having a variety of peoples on staff. Has
to learn that even a 6’1” black guy can be moved by Titanic.
We need to do this because it will be key to our survival in the
nation the Census Bureau now forecasts, one in which the idea of
racial majority will soon be obsolete. More simply, we need to do
this because it is the right thing to do.
And here, I’m guided again by my one time mentor, Stan Lee, the guy
who, you will recall, taught me words like phantasmagorical,
tintinnabulating and larruping.
Stan also taught me this axiom: With great power comes great
responsibility. We have great power. We have the power to find the
common humanity in the faceless other, the power to move people
beyond stereotype and into thought. This is crucial work. I find that
even now, in the supposed enlightenment of the 1990s, there is a
yawning ignorance about the tribes of humanity who make up the
American people. And at the same time, there’s an almost desperate
curiosity.
Perhaps you’re familiar with the Yforum -- www.yforum.com. It’s a
Web site started by Phil Milano of the Florida Times-Union for people
different races, religions, age groups, sexual orientations or what
have you to ask questions of one another. His idea was to create a
place where people could learn about one another, ask intimate and
maybe even offensive questions in a non-threatening environment. And
other people, just everyday folks, would answer.
A very simple idea. Yet there was a hunger for it.
Phil tells me he’s been inundated with questions and answers, so many
hundreds of thousands that he can’t even keep up with it. The YForum
has been featured in, among others, The Cleveland Plain Dealer, CBS
This Morning, the Detroit News, the Denver Post, the Boston Globe,
the Atlantic Monthly, Associated Press, AsianWeek magazine, the West
Australian, the Colorado Springs Gazette, the Philadelphia Inquirer,
LeMonde, Paris, the Fort Worth Star-Telegram, the Sarasota
Herald-Tribune, the DesMoines Register, the Richmond Times-Dispatch,
the Akron Beacon Journal, the Orange County Register, the San Antonio
Express News, the Houston Chronicle and the Miami Herald where, I am
exceedingly proud to say, my column was the first in the country to
spotlight Phil’s forum.
I looked in on the site a few days ago. At the risk of ruining your
afternoon, here are some of the questions I found. Is it true that
black people have an extra muscle in their calves? Why does it seem
that most male hairdressers, florists, entertainers, decorators and
clothing designers are gay? Is there a way to tell the difference in
Asian nationalities? Is it true that the direction the eyes slant is
an indicator? Why do Jewish people eat Matzoh? Why is it that
Caucasians seem to spend so much time on lawn care?
My absolute favorite, though, was a man who, in the first week of the
Web site’s existence asked, “What would take place during a typical
week night in a black family?
Hearing that, part of me wants to make bad jokes about roasting white
babies on a bonfire of Michael Bolton CDs while eating chicken and
drinking 40s. And part of me just wants to cry because the question,
like so many others to be found on the site, is heartbreaking in the
very mundaneness of it. It tells me that we are still mysteries to
one another. So much so that even the most minor details are cause
for wonder.
I had a white colleague spend the night in my house one time. He was
so excited by it, must have mentioned two or three times that this
would be his very first time staying overnight in a black person’s
home. And I’m saying to myself...does he figure he’ll be sleeping on
a red, black and green pillow case? Does he think the cornflakes are
going to taste any different in the morning? I mean, what is it he’s
looking for or expecting?
But by the same token, I understood what it was he was trying to say.
These are lines we do not cross. And as a result, we live by myth and
supposition. As a result, we live in ignorance.
Worse, that we don’t know one another well enough -- trust one
another fully enough -- to have the sort of dialogue that might end
the ignorance. Meaning not the feel-good town meetings President
Clinton sponsored awhile back, but the honest and painful and
informative discourse that might ultimately lead us to some sense of
community. And worse than that, the overwhelming success of YForum
tells us that people want to have that discussion, want to end their
own ignorance, want to hear the stories...want to know.
I’m reminded of the white guy I knew in college back in the ‘70s who
was dying to touch my hair because he wanted to know what an Afro
felt like. I’m also reminded of how, in 1905, a white man named Alvin
Borgquest wrote to the great black scholar W.E.B. DuBois, explaining
that he, Borgquest, was doing research on the subject of crying as a
release of emotion. Specifically, Mr. Borgquest wanted to know,
“whether the Negro sheds tears.”
And the thing that saddens me is that it’s not so hard to imagine
that question showing up on Yforum next week. Not difficult at all to
believe some guy might write in to ask what a black person’s hair
feels like. What’s that tell you about the job we haven’t done?
What’s it say to you about the stories we haven’t told?
In the face of our failure, ignorance flourishes. And gaps widen.
It’s telling that, objectively speaking, I might have more in common
with the white guy who lives next door to me in the suburbs than I
might with a black man who lives in the heat and hardness of the
city. But that doesn’t matter – not to them, not to me, not to the
police officer who might be tailing one or the other of us some dark
night. Race becomes the difference that obscures all others.
So people tend to say black, Native American or Hispanic when they
mean other things. When they mean poor, or ill-educated, or criminal.
As if we held the patent on this stuff. As if doing bad were genetic
predisposition, something in the blood. It’s like Chris Rock once
said: A black man is born a suspect. The same is true for a Native
American man or a Hispanic. An Asian man, of course, is born making
straight A’s. And if the stereotype is intended as a compliment,
guess what? It’s still a stereotype, still a noose around the neck of
individuality, still a constriction of character, still a denial of
uniqueness and personhood.
These words – African-American, Hispanic, Asian, Native American –
have so much power. They confer identity, a sense of place, a pride
of purpose, a grounding in historical trial, a connection to
something larger. They confer roots.
But for all that, the power of those words carries an important
limitation that uninformed minds and small hearts sometimes forget.
If you tell me that you’re Native American or Hispanic or whatever, I
might be able to infer some general things about you, about your
beliefs, maybe about your experiences. I can make some educated
guesses. But I cannot know who you are. That’s the mistake people
keep making – looking at a people while trying to fathom a
person.
I can’t know who you are, what you think and feel, until I look into
your eyes and learn your name and hear your story. Your individual
story. That’s our job. We are the story tellers. We are the ones who
put skin on stereotypes and faces on fears. We are the ones who carve
individual lives from the anonymity of monolith.
When we learn to do this, we create a product that is accessible to
more people. This makes good business sense.
In opening ourselves to more people we create an understanding that
“America” comes in many colors and is spoken in many accents. This
makes good social sense.
Finally, in helping to foster this understanding, we accept the
responsibility that comes with the power. This makes good moral
sense. But we cannot do any of these things effectively until we get
our own house in order, cannot get the nation to pay attention to
drums we ourselves are unable to hear.
Our job is to introduce America to itself. To remind us that we are
many people from many houses come by many paths to this one place.And
we all have our drums.
Listen.
Listen.
Listen."